Seeping like puss.
FLASH
Anger and Resentment
Like fetid dreams.
FLASH
Pain and disgust
Nauseatingly insane, incomprehensible acts
Almost impossible to believe.
FLASH, there is goes again
Sometimes, silent movies
Small clips.
Flashing
Showing
Revealing
Unwelcome images,
Like sleeping monsters waking from slumber.
Flashing again
Waking nightmares, like poison to the brain
FLASH
A voice....this won't hurt
But it does, so much more deeper then anyone could endure.
FLASH
The voice, A demon in the dark
The smell of sweat
The weight crushing the air from my lungs,
Unable to breath, thinking this might be a good thing. To stop breathing that is.
Hide, hide, hide away
Go somewhere deep
Somewhere far away.
Run, run, run so fast and don't look back
Maybe if your quick it can be eluded.
By Lori 11/19/04
I made the collage and wrote the poem a few years ago when it was a very difficult time for me. I decided to post it for those who have endured the same experiences in hopes that it can help them in some small way. Life can be so black, so cruel and so disappointing but the point is to never give up. You are worth more than that, we all are.
Lots of luv my dear friends!
Lori
- Mood:
indifferent
A world in hiding that I have no part.
Deep in darkness my spirits lie,
Tormented soul without a cry.
No one there who knows my plight,
Of a wandering soul without no light.
Cursed by damnation, on my own,
Forever to walk the night alone.
By: Lori 7/29/2007
- Mood:
cynical
Dreams were made to be broken,
If you deny this, it's a lie.
You wander through life in search of them,
But once found they eventually die.
They leave the hopeful in despair,
Their souls soiled and wrought.
Is it easy to try to search again?
You may think so but I think not.
By: Lori 7/30/2007
- Mood:
crushed
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Running through the rain in darkness,
lightning streaking across the midnight sky,
the power of nature envelopes me,
feeling eternal life that will not die.
The rush of exhilaration in the elemental supreme force,
Wild wings propel me along my destined course.
Blind faith in a security of mother earth's power and reign,
always worshiping her power and walking with her once again!By: Lori 9/23/2007
- Mood:
jubilant
Beautiful rain falling,
Like tear drops to the ground,
I listen to them trill
An alluring and melodic sound.
The wind sweeps through them
Caresses my mind and soul,
I draw healing energy from them
In hopes of feeling whole.
I dance among the raindrops,
In a silent ritual of fate,
The power of the storm engulfs me
That no mere sickness could abate.
Enchanting raindrops,
Rejuvenating raindrops,
So beautiful and caressing.
I open my heart to the heavens,
And absorb the power now transgressing.
By: Lori 9/25/2007
- Mood: grateful
With no where left to go?
You thrash wildly just beneath the surface,
Fighting against the undertow.
Your heart just pounds in panic,
You wish you could take flight.
But there is nothing left to hold on too,
Not a single thing seems right.
You feel yourself being pulled down further,
Your mind in a whirling fog,
Your limbs grow cold and heavy,
Your body enveloped in a merciless icy fog.
Have you ever felt like your drowning,
In life and all it's pain?
Your heart seems to cease to beat,
Never to feel again?
By: Mystery Of Me 10/3/2007
- Mood: frustrated
a well of misery and no where to hide.
A heart also wrenching in pain and disgust
tears slowly forming from a betrayal of trust.
too many visions of pain and despair,
too many muffled screams from those she doth care.
witnessing havoc, near death and defeat,
in another world the end would seem sweet.
Instead she just waits while insides she implodes,
tears her only blanket and which in her mind she forebodes.
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I wrote this because sometimes life just seems to toss one too many nasty surprises to you all at once. It seems that lately there has been so many things going wrong all around me. So many people in misery, pain, sadness, loss and it pains me that in so many of their cases there is nothing that I can do to make it go away.
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Pain in the flesh is a lonely place to be, pain in the mind can at some point be set free. In only a moment our lives can change on a dime, in only a moment we are thrust forward in time. In only a moment we can lose so much, in only a moment we can lose sight of our touch. We become lost in a web of pain and despair, lost in a world where there is no more to share. How do we heed what is in our minds and move on? How do we play the game when all the pieces are wrong? How do you write to pour out your heart, when the ache is so deep you never really start?
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Life most definitely has it's constant ups and downs, it's just that sometimes there are so many it is almost impossible to know just which way to turn next. Too many hurt in mind, body and soul. Where do I begin? When will I lose myself? Who will I lose in the process?
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[To those that I love...I feel such sorrow for all the pain that you are enduring and I truly wish that there were more I could do. I feel your pain and take it on as my own because of my love for you.]
By: Lori 7/16/2007
- Mood:tortured
A gaping void consuming with a deadly greed.
A heart found lost with wings of despair,
Crying, screaming no black blood to share.
Falling asunder as evil cries wail,
In remembrance of every horrific childhood tale.
No wandering left only drowning in doubt,
A wordless expression unable to explain a way out.
A light offers a glimmer of what a life just might be,
It's only teasing and taunting not my reality.
I hold in my hands two souls put aside,
One flourishes and protects so that the other can hide.
In darkness is wisdom, knowledge and peace,
It is all that I've known to make all else cease.
By: Lori 12/4/2007
- Mood:Solemn
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